A month out of university and with the Exam scheduled for May 26, 2013 not looking too hot, I am finally forced to admit that I have a serious problem: Procrastination.
This is something I have been in denial about for about 7 years now, owing to the fact that I generally do reasonably well (not great) even with last-minute effort. Doesn't look like that will be the end result now. Immediate lessons learnt: (i) The UPSC requires more than a month of study (which everyone but me probably already knows) and (ii) is a risk not to be undertaken without a back-up job.
Nevertheless, one must not lose hope. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst. If not this year, next year. A month out of college is no reason to lose hope with regard to the issue of the-all-important-source-of-income.
I have to wonder though: Does the combination of procrastinator and optimist make one a builder-of-castles-in-the-air? Is this never-ending optimism the root of my problem? Methinks someone is starting to irritate herself.
Present Emotional State:
I feel a little like a traveler who accidently finds himself (herself) locked inside India's Mars Obiter, 30 seconds from launch on October 22, 2013. Of course, in this scenario, the accidental traveler's survival is tied solely to the success of the Mission. All considerations of food, oxygen, temperature, pressure, gravity, boredom, solar radiation, etc. are irrelevant.
This picture illustrates the point perfectly: (How I wish I was the one who drew this)
I must say though, the comparison above isn't meant to take away anything from what must be an experience beyond compare: actually looking at Mars through a spacecraft orbiting the planet.
This is something I have been in denial about for about 7 years now, owing to the fact that I generally do reasonably well (not great) even with last-minute effort. Doesn't look like that will be the end result now. Immediate lessons learnt: (i) The UPSC requires more than a month of study (which everyone but me probably already knows) and (ii) is a risk not to be undertaken without a back-up job.
Nevertheless, one must not lose hope. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst. If not this year, next year. A month out of college is no reason to lose hope with regard to the issue of the-all-important-source-of-income.
I have to wonder though: Does the combination of procrastinator and optimist make one a builder-of-castles-in-the-air? Is this never-ending optimism the root of my problem? Methinks someone is starting to irritate herself.
Present Emotional State:
I feel a little like a traveler who accidently finds himself (herself) locked inside India's Mars Obiter, 30 seconds from launch on October 22, 2013. Of course, in this scenario, the accidental traveler's survival is tied solely to the success of the Mission. All considerations of food, oxygen, temperature, pressure, gravity, boredom, solar radiation, etc. are irrelevant.
This picture illustrates the point perfectly: (How I wish I was the one who drew this)
I must say though, the comparison above isn't meant to take away anything from what must be an experience beyond compare: actually looking at Mars through a spacecraft orbiting the planet.
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